i have been in the hospital most of the time now. trying to get as much practice as possible. and the business of talking to patients, does not come easy- a few hurdles need to be taken care off;

1. nasty nurses who told you off for not asking their permission before talking to patients (eventho we are attached to the ward)

2. other medical students (imposters) who claimed they are attached to the ward and hog the patients, causing us to be shushed from the ward

3. patients who refused to speak to us becaue they have been harrassed by so many students already.

4. patient's visitors and rest period

5. teaching sessions which are cancelled after we've been waiting around for a long time.

as a conclusion, towards exam times, medical students need to be very thick-skinned. be able to handle lots and lots of rejections ( i am well experienced in this field- thnak goodness), be able to smile politely and say thank you even if u are rejected, or being told of by nurses.

and going back to my title here- which is respect. altho we are mere students. no qualifications, no nothing. mere stupid students. we still deserve respect as other human being.

and to another topic, i have been ill. and been very very busy. juggling work, and house problem (tht seems to be never-ending and walking in a circle - i feel like giving up), msian dinner, and on top of that, coming down with a flu. i mean seriously , cant i have more things to think about.

and i'm starting to be slightly nasty now. seriyesly. if ppl are nasty to me? do they deserve  my smile and my care? I HAVE BEEN SENSING A LOT OF NEGATIVE ENERGY POURING OUT OF ME. its undeniably sickening and frustrating. but- its just bad timing for ppl to mess around with me . really.

i know i will bounce out of this. its a matter of time and space. i know i will. so please be patient :)